I was the toxic one in my relationship, and ruined everything
“I’m tired of your bullshit. All this time, you made everything about you. It’s always about you. You played the victim and were negative all the time. You’re selfish and toxic!”
I was utterly shocked. His words felt like hundreds of daggers being stabbed into my chest and twisted. My heart stopped and I painfully gasped.
I was too numb. I couldn’t run to him and ask him to stay.
He blocked me on social media. Blocked my phone number. I couldn’t reach him. He hated me so much, he moved away not long after that.
For days, I obsessed over the last things he said to me. It took me a while to realize the truth: that he was right.
I was exactly what he said.
The whole time, I had mentally abused him, manipulated his emotions, made him feel guilty of things that weren’t his fault.
The fault was all mine.