Are you holding something inside that you are afraid to admit to others — or maybe even acknowledge fully to yourself?
A secret, a hidden or repressed truth, is like a parasitic worm eating you up from the inside out. Eventually the truth wins — but at what cost?
Guilt, shame, and pretense almost always manifest in physical illness, depression, anxiety, substance abuse, or some other painful expression of repression or lying.
You don’t have to have committed a heinous crime to experience the pain of a secret life. (Although I’ve often wondered why guilty murderers keep proclaiming their innocence when they’ve been sentenced. Holding that secret must be tormenting.)
Just compromising our integrity or living an inauthentic life is enough to chafe at one’s soul. We frantically seek relief from the emptiness and heartache of a “secret” self by any means possible — drinking, over-spending, over-working, etc.
Pretending to be someone you’re not, living a lie, telling lies, or withholding a portion of
the truth, will surely prevent you from living a full and happy life — but only always.
Why is it so hard to be honest with ourselves and others, even though we know the importance of the truth? Most of us were raised on lessons of truth, and yet we learn quickly that lying seems more convenient or expedient. And we keep lying until our noses grow longer than the lie itself.
Small children are great barometers of the truth and can smell adult lies a mile away.